Chapter 39
Uno, due, tre, quattro, cinque, sei …
It occurred to William, as he finished his final set of bicep curls, that he was probably
the only person in the health club counting his repetitions in Italian. He was probably also
the only person there who had a private exercise room at home. But home was a continent away,
and on Monday afternoon he had finally received his doctor’s blessing to resume a limited
weight training program. He had considered waiting until he returned to New York, where he
wouldn’t have to work out under the competitive scrutiny of men at nearby benches. But
any motivation he might have needed to begin at once had been provided by the rapt expression
on Elizabeth’s face last Tuesday night as she peeled his shirt from his shoulders.
William jogged for his health, but he engaged in weight training purely for vanity’s
sake. He had started years ago in an attempt to imitate Richard, his lanky fourteen-year-old
frame an embarrassment compared to his cousin’s muscular build. William, who was tall
and naturally slender, would never have Richard’s physique, but he was proud of the additional
strength and sculpting his efforts had earned him. 
His workout complete, he toweled off, pulled on a clean tee shirt and sweatpants, and dodged
the heavy late-afternoon traffic during the short walk back to his building. One advantage
offered by the club’s location in the Fairmont Hotel was that he could bypass its showers
in favor of the comfort and privacy of his own bathroom.
Privacy was now in abundant supply at the penthouse. Over the past two weeks William had
become accustomed to Sonya’s company in the middle of the day and Richard’s in the
morning and late at night. But Sonya’s plane had landed in New York a few hours ago,
and Richard had moved out just before William left for the health club.
Late this morning, as he and Richard were driving back from their run along the bay, William
had finally confessed the celibate state of his relationship with Elizabeth. It had irked
him to do so, but he owed Richard some explanation for his pending eviction.
“So I really have been in the way, and that’s why Jane kept trying to put me
on a leash. You should have said something sooner, old man.” Richard was quiet for a
moment, and then shot a perplexed glance at William. “But in that case, what was the
deal on Tuesday? You needed privacy for, what, a hot game of Scrabble?”
William, lacking a plausible explanation that didn’t delve into deeply personal matters,
chose to remain silent.
Richard shook his head. “Whatever. You’re doing your inscrutable routine, and
I know better than to try to pry you open. But the real question is, what
the hell
have you two been waiting for? You’re crazy in love and you can barely keep your hands
off each other, even in public.”
William shrugged, his eyes straight ahead on the road, and replied, “It’ll happen
when the time is right.” But his nonchalance was pure pretense. He had spent the hours
since Elizabeth’s departure last night thinking of little but his burning need
to possess
her. He was proud of the restraint he had shown yesterday, starting before dawn in his bed
and continuing through the evening at Top of the Mark. But he had paid the price, suffering
through a sleepless night full of loneliness and frustration.
“Time, shmime. Haven’t you ever heard the saying, ‘Just do it’? Anyway,
say no more. I’ll clear out right after lunch.”
“Thanks, Richard. I’m sorry to kick you out this way.”
“Really, old man, it’s no hardship. In fact, it’s just what the doctor ordered.
In a hotel with 24-hour room service, we’ll hardly even have to get out of bed.”
“You and Charlotte.”
“Of course. I’m telling you, Will, last night was beyond belief.
The World Series of sex.
Tie score, extra innings, a nonstop string of home runs.”
“It was that good?” A hot wave of envy washed over William, and he gripped the
steering wheel tightly, trying not to lapse into yet another full-blown fantasy of Elizabeth
lying
beneath him,
her face flushed with passion, as he … Stop it! She needs to be treated gently, not
devoured by a slobbering beast. Unfortunately the beast was demanding to be fed, unable
to grasp the subtlety and restraint the situation required.
Richard let out a little hoot in response to William’s question. “Good? You have
no idea. And I know I’m safe in saying that, considering your monastic existence. I think
the earth really did move.”
“It sounded that way,” William said with a sardonic glance at his cousin.
“I know, we made a lot of noise, which is another reason why we should relocate to
neutral turf.”
“I’m surprised by this sudden turnaround. Until last night, you’ve been
on the monkish side yourself during your stay here.”
“Yeah, and I know you’ve been scratching your head over it.”
“Are you going to explain, or is it your turn to be inscrutable?” William brought
the car to a stop at a red light, and a group of pedestrians stepped into the intersection.
“Whoa.” Richard sat up straight and his eyebrows shot up.
“What?” William followed Richard’s rapt stare, looking without success for
something noteworthy.
“You didn’t see her?”
“Who?”
“That gorgeous babe who just crossed in front of us, of course.” 
William drummed his fingers on the steering wheel, impatient for the light to change. “Didn’t
notice.”
“How could you not notice? That was quite some dress she was almost wearing. I guess
love really is blind.”
“Is this your clever way of evading my question?” William had been relieved when
the conversational spotlight turned away from him, and he had no intention of stepping back
into its glare.
The light turned green and the Ferrari surged ahead, its engine growling. Richard grabbed
a towel from his lap and mopped his face. “Damn, I’m still overheated from that
run. You’re starting to get your stamina back, old man—I could barely keep
up. Then again,
I expended lots of energy last
night, so I was at a disadvantage.”
“Still evading, I see.”
“Oh, all right. Richard’s Dilemma, coming right up. For the past few months,
I’ve been waking up in the morning unable to remember the name of the girl I’m with,
or even what we did the night before. I’ve sometimes ended up at a girl’s apartment
more than once, not because she was worthy of a double-header, but because I couldn’t
remember that I’d already been
there and done that.”
“They say the memory is the first thing to go.”
“Shut up. My point was, more and more the girls are interchangeable, instantly forgettable,
and I’m getting bored.”
“Which is why you just ogled a ‘babe’ in the street.”
“One thing has nothing to do with the other. The day I stop looking will be the day
you’re playing hymns at my funeral.”
“Fair enough.”
“The other thing is, though it pains me to admit it, either the girls are getting
younger or I’m getting older.”
William snorted. “I hate to break this to you, but—”
“I know, I know. And you can knock off the superior routine, just because you’re
younger. Your day will come. But I admit, turning 35 a few months ago was tough for me, especially
since I found my first gray hair a day or two later.
And don’t ask where I found it.”
There was no danger of that.
“Then I gather that you’ve decided that it’s time to settle down. I never thought
I’d see the day.” Despite his sarcastic remark, William understood. Even at its
most extreme, his social life had never approached the bacchanalia that was Richard’s
daily existence, yet the arrival of his 30th birthday had forced William to re-evaluate
his life.
Hell, no.”
Richard looked aghast. “I haven’t gone completely round the bend. Settling down.”
He snorted. “I pity the woman who tries to domesticate me.”
“As do we all. Sorry, I didn’t mean to impugn your honor.”
“Yeah, watch it, old man. You know the saying about leopards and spots. But I have
been re-thinking the way I spend my evenings, or at least the company I keep. I’m tired
of the endless rounds of inane chatter and
verbal foreplay.”
“If you’re bored with
verbal foreplay,
what do you call what went on with Charlotte last night at the bar?”
“I stand corrected. I’m tired of dull, unimaginative
verbal foreplay.
I’m interested in having some conversation with a woman who’s heard of Kant and
Nietzche and Abner Doubleday, and who has actual opinions on politics and art.”
“Which I suppose is why you’ve been spending time with Jane.” Jane was soft-spoken
in her views, but she was intelligent and well read, and had occasionally impressed William
with the breadth of her knowledge.
“I’ve decided she’s way too brainy for Chuckles, though since they seem
stalled in ‘just-friends’ mode I suppose it’s a moot point. But as for Charlotte,
I haven’t had that much fun talking to a woman in years. She’s got wit and brains
to spare.”
“I’ve always enjoyed talking to her.”
“And, hallelujah, she’s not coy about what she
wants. And she certainly knows her way around a bedroom … and a bathroom … and a kitchen …
and—”
“Stop right there, I beg you.”
“Oh, get off your high horse. You’re just jealous because you’d like to
do Miss Lizzy in all of those rooms, plus some others, I’m sure.”
William hadn’t commented, but Richard’s statement had been impossible to deny.

And so Richard was gone, ensconced in a suite at the Four Seasons. Aside from Mrs. Hill’s
unobtrusive presence in the afternoons, William had the penthouse to himself. He unlocked
the door, dropped his keys on the hall table, and made his way to his bathroom, mentally organizing
the remainder of his day. A shower first, obviously. There would be time for a short practice
session before meeting Anne and Roger for dinner. And I’ve got to get myself under
control before Lizzy gets here tonight, or I’ll scare her away for good.

Jane looked up from her book, smiling to herself as Elizabeth dashed into the condo and
issued a hasty greeting on her way to the shower. It gave Jane great pleasure to see her sister
so happy, secure in the certainty of William’s affection. Not that he was truly good
enough for Elizabeth—no man was—but there was no question that he
adored her. Had there been any doubt, Elizabeth’s story of the love and patience he had
shown after her flashback had offered ample proof.
If only things would work out as well in court tomorrow. The judge was deliberating
overnight and planned to announce his decision in the morning. Jane found it impossible to
remain detached when the fate of a woman and her three children rested in her hands. Or,
rather, the judge’s hands now.
Elizabeth, swathed in a bathrobe, returned to the living room. She perched on the arm of
the sofa, her gaze sharp as she studied Jane. “How’s everything going?”
“Fine. How was school?”
“Not bad. Are you still going to join Char and me at the spa tomorrow afternoon?”
“I hope so. We should have a verdict in the morning.”
“And you’re worried about it.”
Jane shook her head. “You know I’m always a little nervous about cases like this
one. But at this point all we can do is wait and hope that we convinced the judge.”
“I’m sure you did a wonderful job,” Elizabeth said. “You always do.”
She slid off the sofa arm and onto the cushion. “Tell me how things went today.”
Jane was touched by Elizabeth’s concern, but it was obvious from her surreptitious
glance at the clock and the way she was fidgeting with the belt on her robe that her thoughts
were elsewhere. And that’s as it should be. “Really, Lizzy, I’m fine.
I’m enjoying a quiet evening with a book Richard lent me. And you’re itching to
get over to the penthouse.”
Elizabeth looked down at her hands. “I’m sorry, Jane. It’s just that—”
“I know. You’re in love, and all you can think about is being with him. So go
get dressed—he’s waiting, and I’m sure all he can think about is being
with you.”
Elizabeth leaned across the couch and hugged Jane. “I love you.” She jumped to
her feet and hurried into the bedroom.
Jane had read only a few pages of her book when Elizabeth reappeared, casually dressed
and carrying her overnight bag.
“Before I go, I want to ask you something. About our conversation last night, after
I got home…”
Jane heard the hesitation in Elizabeth’s voice. “Are you having second thoughts?”
Elizabeth licked her lips, setting her bag on the floor. “Not really. I’m just
not sure what I’m going to say. I mean, how do you look a guy in the eye and tell him
that you want to …” Her voice trailed off. “I know I sound like a dolt, but
I don’t have any experience in this area.”
“You don’t sound like a dolt.” Jane smiled gently. “Just be honest
with him. Tell him how you feel.”
“But how do I word it? ‘Take me, you
big, hot
hunk of man’?”
Jane laughed. “Well, he’d definitely get the message.”
“Yeah, right before he ran off screaming into the night.”
“He wouldn’t. But if you’re worried about being too direct, you could show
him how you feel by the way you kiss him. Or by touching him.”
The merry sparkle in Elizabeth’s eyes was doused by a blend of bewilderment and horror.
“Please tell me that you’re not suggesting that I reach out all of a sudden and
grab his—”
“Of course not!” Jane couldn’t help giggling. “Though if you want his
undivided attention, that would do the trick.”
Elizabeth laughed. “Poor William. If he had the slightest idea what we’re discussing,
he’d die.”
“Lizzy, my best advice is, don’t make this complicated. Just talk to him.”
“I love him so much, Jane.”
“I know you do.” Jane stood up and hugged Elizabeth, which allowed her to hide
the tears that had sprung to her eyes. She brushed them away before releasing Elizabeth. “And
I’m very happy for you. Now, go on over there, and have a wonderful time.”
“Thanks. I’ll see you at the spa tomorrow.”
Jane wore a tender smile as Elizabeth grabbed her bag and coat and rushed out the door,
her ponytail flying behind her. Alone again, Jane wandered into the kitchen, put on the teakettle,
and dabbed her eyes with a paper napkin. Her tears were primarily of the happy variety—Elizabeth had finally emerged from the fortress in which she had locked herself years ago,
and to see her radiant with love and joy was poignant.
I wonder if I’ll ever feel that way again. Not that I begrudge Lizzy her happiness—no one deserves it more—but …
While she waited for the kettle to boil, Jane went to her bedroom and sat in front of her
laptop computer, which rested on a small desk in the corner. Her eyes warmed when she saw
the e-mail message that awaited her:
From: Charles Bingley
Date: Thursday, October 25, 9:13 pm
To: Jane
Subject: re: This weekend
Hi Jane,
Finally booked my flight. The best Will
and I could come up with was to meet at the airport on Sat. morning. Pretty sad, huh? But
that means I’m free after lunch. Want to meet for a run in the park? Or on the Embarcadero.
You choose, either one’s fine w/me.
Also, Caroline said she’d be calling
you to set up Sun. brunch. She’s got some new place she wants us to try. Lizzy’s
welcome too, but Caro prob. won’t mention that. You know how she is about Lizzy.
How’s the trial going? I bet you’re
sitting around stewing about it, but I know you were brilliant.
Oh—can you tell me the time
and place for Lizzy’s party again? I keep writing it down and losing the piece of paper.
I’m looking forward to this weekend—
Charles
The kettle whistled, interrupting her perusal of his message. She hurried to the kitchen,
poured herself a cup of tea, and returned with it to the bedroom. Taking a cautious sip of
the hot liquid, she read Charles’s message again, a gentle smile turning up the corners
of her mouth.
As was always the case when Elizabeth came over after dark, William had insisted on meeting
her in the parking garage and walking her back to the penthouse. Since the garage was next
door to his building, Elizabeth considered this an excess of chivalry. Earlier in their relationship
she had sometimes “forgotten” to call and notify him of her impending arrival, but
she had finally decided that it was a small price to pay for his peace of mind. At least he
no longer insisted on picking her up at home each time they planned to spend an evening at
the penthouse.
Upstairs, he helped her off with her coat and hung it in the closet. Then he retrieved
her overnight bag from the floor. “I’ll take this to the bedroom.” But before
he could go, their eyes met in an intimate look that sent a shiver through Elizabeth. William
dropped the bag, capturing her face in his hands. “I’m glad you’re here,”
he whispered, bending his head to hers.
Their kiss ignited a shower of sparks inside Elizabeth, and with a low moan she wrapped
her arms around his waist, pressing herself close to him. As they stood entwined in the dimly-lit
hallway, Elizabeth’s few remaining doubts about her intentions for the night were vaporized
by the heat of their embrace. Nothing had ever felt so right.
William lifted his head, desire radiating from his eyes. “I missed you so much last
night,” he murmured, stroking her cheek with his thumb. “I thought I’d go mad,
lying there aching for you.”
“I missed you too. I couldn’t stop thinking about how warm and safe I felt lying
in your arms.”
A frown line creased William’s forehead, and he released her, retrieving her bag from
the floor. “Yes, well, I’ll take this down the hall.”
Elizabeth stood staring at an orchid on the hall table, puzzling over what had just happened.
He had seemed on the verge of taking her to his bedroom, not her overnight bag, when
suddenly his mood had changed. It reminded her of last night when they were saying their goodbyes.
She had expected him to ask once more to come home with her, and she doubted she could have
refused him. She had even subtly encouraged his entreaty by asking if he would be able to
get any sleep upstairs. But instead of making the request she expected, he had helped her
into her car, hurrying her on her way.
Still pondering the mystery that was William Darcy, she wandered into the living room.
Almost immediately, he reappeared and joined her on the sofa. “Are you tired?” he
asked.
“Yes and no. It’s been a long day, but I’m usually pretty wired after my
night class and it takes me a while to come down again. How about you?”
“I was, but I took a nap late this afternoon instead of practicing.”
“So I assume Richard and Char kept you awake last night?”
“It wasn’t that bad, but I did hear them a few times. Have you talked to Charlotte
today?”
“Yes, she called to set a time to meet at the spa tomorrow. Apparently they had just
as good a time as the noise suggested.” Charlotte had been at an uncharacteristic loss
for words, but it had been clear that the night had far exceeded her expectations.
William snorted. “Richard exhausted his supply of baseball metaphors trying to describe
it. Did you tell her that we overheard them?”
“No, I didn’t see the point.”
“I wish I’d decided that. I told Richard, and he had a good laugh at the two
of us tiptoeing past their trail of clothing. I suppose you know they’re at the Four
Seasons tonight.”
“Uh huh. With 24-hour room service and everything.”
“Speaking of which, are you hungry?”
“Actually, yeah, I am. I had half a sandwich before class, but that’s all I’ve
eaten since … let’s see, since lunch yesterday. I had to skip dinner last night too,
because of seeing the counselor.”
William stretched his arm around her shoulders. “You need to take better care of yourself,
cara.”
“You sound like me, a couple of months ago.”
He grinned. “I suppose it’s my turn to nag now. If you’d like something
to eat, there’s a pot of vegetable soup in the kitchen. Mrs. Hill made it in case you
were hungry.”
“Oh, that sounds good.” Mrs. Hill made the best vegetable soup Elizabeth had
ever tasted.
He stood and held out a hand to help her to her feet. “Then let’s get you some
dinner.”
A few minutes later they were seated at the kitchen table sharing a bottle of wine while
Elizabeth enjoyed her soup. “This really hits the spot,” she sighed. “Thank
you so much.”
“No need to thank me. Mrs. Hill did the work.”
“But it was your idea, wasn’t it? You knew I might be hungry, and you also know
how much I love her vegetable soup.”
He shrugged diffidently and turned his gaze out the window. “I’m glad you’re
enjoying it. Would you like some more wine?”
“Maybe in a few minutes.” Elizabeth’s eyes warmed in tender amusement. He
was sometimes embarrassed to be caught making small, thoughtful gestures. “How was your
dinner tonight?”
“Pleasant enough. It was good to have Roger there. Anne and I both tend to be rather
quiet.”
“An understatement for the ages. What did he think of Anne?”
“I didn’t have a chance to ask. It was getting late, and he volunteered to take
her home so I could get back here to meet you.”
“That was nice of him.” She set down her spoon, an impish gleam in her eyes.
“So, was vegetable soup originally the first course of our dinner tomorrow? And has this
late-night snack disrupted your plans?”
William shook his head with a long-suffering air, but the smile in his eyes told a different
story. “I see that Ms. Inquisitive is on the job again. Very well, ma’am, I’ll
answer that question. Vegetable soup is not now, nor has it never been, on the menu for tomorrow.”
“You realize it’s dangerous to have me here tonight, don’t you? It’s
a perfect opportunity to snoop for clues. I can check out the groceries in the fridge, for
example.”
“Go ahead. There’s nothing incriminating in there.”
“Or maybe I’ll check the closets for my birthday present.” Elizabeth wouldn’t
really have snooped—not much, anyway—but it was fun teasing William.
“That would be ‘presents’—plural.”
“Ooh! Now I’m really curious.”
“In fact, I thought I might give you one tonight. Would you like that?”
“If you’re expecting me to say, ‘No, thanks, I’d rather wait till tomorrow,’
you’re crazy.”
He drained his wine glass and stood up. “All right, then. I’ll be right back.”
Elizabeth was just finishing her soup when William returned to the kitchen carrying a large
box wrapped in silver foil paper. Three smaller packages were piled on top of the box.
“I thought you said one present tonight, not that I’m complaining.”
“They go together.” He cleared a space on the table and set the packages there.
“Open the big one first.”
With a childlike smile, Elizabeth ripped off the paper, revealing a cardboard box whose
markings identified the contents as a DVD player. She and Jane had been talking about buying
one, but hadn’t done so yet.
“The salesperson said it was the best one on the market,” William said. “I
forget how many DVDs it holds, but it’s a large number.”
Elizabeth grinned at the thought of this bonanza coming the salesperson’s way. William
was an audiophile, extremely knowledgeable about stereo components and speakers, but his expertise
did not extend to video equipment. No doubt he had simply purchased the most expensive DVD
player in the store. “Thank you,” she said, jumping from her chair to give him a
kiss. “You’re very sweet.”
“Open the others.” He sat back in his chair regarding her fondly, obviously pleased
with the success of his gift.
She returned to her seat and chose another package, bursting into laughter when she tore
it open. “South Pacific on DVD! As if I haven’t been getting enough of it
at rehearsals.”
“That’s from Sonya. She said it could serve as a memento of all the time you
spent coaching.”
“Have you ever seen it?”
William shook his head.
“How anyone could grow up in New York and be so ignorant about Broadway musicals is
beyond me. Why don’t you borrow it? Maybe some day you’ll feel like watching it.
You can see Mitzi Gaynor singing ‘I’m in Love With a Wonderful Guy.’”
“I’d rather have you sing it for me.” His dimples flashed.
“Don’t hold your breath. It’s going to be a long time before I recover from
rehearsal burnout on those songs. Okay, let’s see what else I have here.” She opened
the third package and found another DVD—The Philadelphia Story.
“Remember our conversation about this movie?” he asked, an eager light in his
eyes. “I think it was the first time we drove up to Stinson Beach. We said we wanted
to watch it together.”
“Of course I remember. And we’ve never gotten around to doing that.”
“That’s why I wanted to give you these presents now. I’m saving a few gifts
for tomorrow, including something more personal. But since we’re not tired, I thought
maybe we could watch the movie tonight.”
She was surprised that he wasn’t anxious to go to bed. “Sure, I guess we could
do that.”
“Good. Now open the last present.”
This one had been bundled into a small paper bag. She laughed when she unveiled a package
of microwave popcorn. “Perfect.” She stood up, holding out her hand to him. He rose,
and she wound her arms around his neck and kissed him. “Thank you so much. I love my
presents.”
“You’re welcome. And you’ll get your main gift tomorrow. Shall we fix the
popcorn and go into the library?” The Fitzwilliams’ DVD player was installed there.
“I have a better idea. There’s a TV in your bedroom, right?”
“Yes, but I’ve never used it.”
“Well, let’s see if it works, and we can try out my new DVD player in there.”
“You mean watch the movie in bed?” He gave her a wary glance.
“Why not? We can change into our PJs, get comfortable. And we could take the popcorn
and the rest of the wine in there—that is, unless you object to eating in bed.”
“As long as we don’t end up lying on popcorn hulls all night.” He shrugged.
“All right. If that’s what you want, I’ll work on hooking up the DVD player.”
“And I’ll make the popcorn and grab the wine.”
With a distracted nod, William took the DVD player and the DVDs and departed. Elizabeth
was more mystified than ever. She had expected him to enthusiastically endorse the idea of
snuggling in bed while watching the movie, yet his reaction had been lukewarm at best. She
started the popcorn and leaned on the counter, her chin supported by one fist as she stared
absently through the microwave’s semi-transparent door.
Her ardent, impatient suitor seemed suddenly to have cooled. She remembered Jane’s
opinion that William would need for her to take initiative, but she had done that earlier
during their passionate kiss, and again with her suggestion that they move into his bedroom.
In both cases, he had retreated in response to her advances.
The popping sounds slowed to a trickle, and Elizabeth retrieved the bag from the microwave
and poured it into a bowl. She juggled the bowl, the wine bottle, and their glasses, managing
to make it to the bedroom without dropping anything. “I don’t think I’ve ever
had wine and popcorn together before,” she said as she deposited her cargo on the night
table.
William had set the DVD player on top of the television and was hunkered down alongside
them, connecting the cables. “I think I’ve got it,” he said. He rose to his
feet and fumbled with the remote controls, succeeding only in obtaining static. He swore under
his breath, pointed the remote at the TV, and tried again in vain. “It must be broken.”
Her eyes twinkling, Elizabeth crossed the room. “Try putting the TV on Channel 3.”
William did as she suggested, and the DVD player’s setup screen appeared. “I
see that superior gleam in your eye,” he grumbled.
“My poor technologically challenged guy,” she said sweetly, stroking his shoulders.
To her dismay, he stiffened at her touch. Unsure how to deal with his peculiar mood, she released
him. “I’ll go into the bathroom and change.”
A few minutes later she stood inspecting herself in the bathroom mirror. One of her recent
errands had been a trip to Victoria’s Secret to find something appropriate to wear to
bed. She had bypassed the transparent baby-doll nightgowns and other provocative garments
and had settled on a satin button-front nightshirt in a deep shade of amethyst. It wasn’t
sexy, precisely, but it was infinitely more attractive than the various oversized, ink-stained
tee shirts in her drawer at home.
She yanked off her ponytail holder and fluffed her hair around her shoulders, the way she
knew William liked it. Then, taking a deep breath, she opened the bathroom door and stepped
through.
William stood staring blindly out the window, trying to calm the attack of nerves that
had seized him while changing into his nightclothes. He had begun to regret inviting Elizabeth
to spend the night. How did I ever think I could sleep with her again without doing a lot
more than sleeping?
His troubles had begun immediately on their arrival at the penthouse, when the mere thought
of her overnight bag residing in his bedroom had spiked his desire to nearly the boiling point.
Her passionate response to his kiss had only made matters worse—he had been within
seconds of lifting her into her arms and carrying her to off bed when he had finally regained
control.
Since then he had devised a series of distractions, hoping to delay bedtime until he was
too exhausted for anything but sleep, but she had short-circuited his plan by proposing that
they watch the movie in his bedroom. Even her light touch on his shoulders had been unbearably
arousing.
Doesn’t she have the slightest idea what she’s doing to me?
No, of course she doesn’t.
She’s a virgin in every sense but the physiological.
I have to remember what she said earlier—that she felt safe in my arms. That’s
what she needs, to feel safe, not to have
a man panting after her who’s been practically a walking erection for the past 24
hours. Or the past five months, to be honest.
He glanced down at himself, grimacing as he pulled his robe shut in an attempt to hide
the telltale bulge in his pajama bottoms. The bathroom door opened and he turned to face her,
careful that his robe stayed closed. He was grateful that he had taken this precaution when
his body responded to the sight of her.
She looked
like a dream in her satiny shirt, her hair loose and slightly disheveled, her delectable legs
bared from mid-thigh to toe. In his mind he had already unbuttoned the
shirt, filling his palms with the lush breasts that had become a near obsession since he had
fondled and kissed them all too briefly on Tuesday night.
He closed his eyes, swallowing hard as he frantically struggled to wrest control from his
overheated body.
“William, what’s wrong?” Her sweet, musical voice only compounded his distress.
“I can’t do this,” he muttered.
“You can’t do what?”
William hadn’t realized that he had said the words aloud. Perhaps it was just as well.
“I’m sorry, Lizzy. I know you’re counting on me, but I can’t share a bed
with you tonight.”
She stepped closer to him, and he nearly groaned aloud as the intoxicating scent of jasmine
filled his nostrils. He fought warring urges—to open a safe distance between them,
or to yank her into his arms and devour her. A safe distance. And that would be … Cleveland?
“Tell me what’s bothering you,” she said softly, her luminous green eyes
full of tender concern.
Something inside of him gave way and the words poured out, eluding his efforts to halt
them. “This is torture, Lizzy. I’ve spent the past 24 hours thinking of nothing
but having you in my bed, and I’m not talking about sleeping. I know you need for me
to be patient and gentle, and I’m doing my best. I’d rather cut off my arm than
do anything to hurt or frighten you. But you’re in my blood, and I can’t take much
more of this.”
“William—”
“I’m a man, not a superhero. I was already in a bad way before you came out of
the bathroom, but seeing you now, beautiful and sexy …” He sighed, shaking his head.
“It’s too much. If we get into that bed, I’m going to have to see you and touch
you. I’m going to have to make love to you.”
He stopped to grab a breath. Elizabeth opened her mouth to speak, but he wasn’t finished
yet.
“I can only think of two solutions. We can go to the library and watch the movie,
and I’ll try to get myself under control by the time we’re ready for bed. Or I can
sleep in another bedroom. Either way, you can feel safe, and that’s what matters.”
The seductive expression in Elizabeth’s eyes knocked the wind out of him. She moved
closer, until their bodies were touching lightly. “Or,” she murmured, sliding her
hands up his chest, “we could go to bed right now. Together. ”
“But—”
“Ssshh.” She raised up on tiptoe, locking her arms around his neck. “You
can stop protecting me from yourself. It’s not necessary.”
“But I don’t want to—”
The heat of her kiss took him by surprise, but he couldn’t have resisted her at any
price. They stood locked together in mindless rapture as the minutes passed, giving and taking,
tasting and exploring. William’s hands roved down her back, the satin of her nightshirt
sliding smoothly beneath his fingers.
He slipped his hands under the shirt and cupped her buttocks, pressing her tightly against
him.
She moaned against his mouth, her hands tangling in his hair, and pressed herself even closer.
Then she released him and stepped out of his arms. Befuddled by desire, he simply stared
as she captured his hand, leading him the few steps to his bed. She perched on the edge of
the mattress, her smile brimming with tantalizing promise, and drew him down to sit beside
her.
“I hope I’m not dreaming,” he whispered, reaching out to touch her cheek.
As their lips met, a lone coherent thought flitted through his mind: At least this time
I had a chance to turn down the bed first.
He wasn’t dreaming, nor was she, but Elizabeth had to admit that the night had taken
on a dreamlike quality. Together they sank down onto the bed, sharing a spine-tingling kiss
that she wished would never end. But it did end eventually, and she lay back, her head resting
on one of William’s luxurious down pillows. He lay on his side facing her, supporting
his weight on one elbow. “Are you sure about this?” he asked, his voice like rich
velvet as he caressed her cheek.
She nodded and reached up to smooth his hair. “Absolutely.”
“What about … what if you have a flashback?”
“I don’t think I will, not tonight. I asked the counselor to help me with this.
I told her that the man I loved was leaving town soon, and I didn’t want to wait till
he got back to make love to him. So she made some suggestions.”
“You did that for me?” His warm brown eyes shone with tenderness.
“I did it for us.”
He kissed her softly. “Is there anything I need to know? Besides that I should keep
my weight off you, obviously.”
“Is that going to be a problem?”
“Not at all. Anything else?”
“Well, in a way it’s my first time.”
“I understand. We’ll take this slowly.”
“Good, because I’m a little bit nervous.”
“You’re not the only one.” William combed his fingers through her hair.
“It’s a big responsibility, being a woman’s first lover.”
My first lover. Her heart swelled at the words. She stroked his chest, feeling his
warmth through the tee shirt he wore. “Is there anything I need to know?”
“Like what?”
“Your heart. For a while you weren’t allowed to do this, and I’ve heard
stories of men having heart attacks in bed with women, so I wanted to make sure that this
is okay.”
He chuckled, leaning over for a slow, warm kiss. “I’m fine. And my blood pressure
will probably plummet once I’m not in a constant state of frustration. Speaking of which …”
She watched his hand as he slowly unbuttoned her shirt, spreading it
open and sliding it off her arms, leaving her naked except for her underpants. Unwilling to
be caught in utilitarian cotton briefs again, she had bought a lacy pair of panties in the
same shade of amethyst as her shirt. His eyes grew dark as they locked on her breasts. “You
are so lovely,” he breathed.
She trembled as his hand slid from her waist upward to capture a breast in his palm. His
touch was so warm, so gentle as he caressed her with the expertise and dedication of a true
connoisseur. “So lovely,” he whispered again. She reached up, pulling his head down,
and eagerly claimed his mouth as it came down on hers.
After a rapturous interval of long, deep kisses, he raised his head, his eyes roving restlessly
over her body. Suddenly she felt a desire to cover herself, uncomfortably aware that she was
nearly naked and he was still fully clothed. “Could we turn off the lights?” she
whispered.
He rolled away from her, turning off the lamp on the night table nearest them. “Is
that better?”
She started to reach for the lamp on the opposite side of the bed, until he placed a gentle
but restraining hand on her shoulder. “Leave it on, cara. You’re so beautiful,
I want to see you.”
It occurred to Elizabeth that if she were shrouded in darkness, the same would be true
of him. “I guess you’re right. I want to see you too. But you’re overdressed,
don’t you think?”
He sat up, shrugged off his robe, and pulled his tee shirt over his head. “Is that
better?”
“Mmmm.” She sat up as well, facing him, and slid her hands slowly over his chest.
She had called him “perfect” two nights ago, and her opinion was unchanged. His
broad shoulders and chest were exactly to her taste—strong and toned, yet with
a lean silhouette. She toyed with his light furring of chest hair and then skipped downward,
tracing a finger along a dark, slender trail that vanished inside his pajama bottoms. His
torso jerked reflexively as she reached the waistband, and with a soft groan he leaned forward,
pulling her against him. His mouth covered hers as he lowered her to the bed, their bodies
molded together.
What is it about the feeling of skin against skin? Elizabeth couldn’t get enough
of the intoxicating sensation of his hard chest rubbing against her breasts as they lay on
their sides. She strained against him as he kissed a searing path along her throat, his breath
hot against her neck.
He pushed her gently onto her back, leaning over her, his hand cupping her breast. She
sighed as his gentle, skilled fingers teased the sensitive nipple to a taut, pleasure-drenched
peak. Then he lowered his head, his lips nuzzling her breast gently, exploring every inch
of it with agonizing thoroughness. She arched her back, begging wordlessly for more, and at
last his tongue lapped at her nipple, circling it, sending shafts of delight shimmering through
her. When he sucked the nipple into his mouth she closed her eyes, weaving her hands convulsively
through his hair, holding his head at her breast as a soft sigh escaped her throat.
William raised his head, staring into her eyes. She saw urgent need blazing there, and
felt it in his taut shoulders and the bunched muscles of his upper back, yet his caresses
were slow and gentle, almost reverent. Obviously he was holding back for her sake, and with
that understanding came a powerful wave of love that brought sudden tears to her eyes. In
a frantic attempt to repay his solicitude she rolled onto her side, depositing a trail of
urgent kisses along his neck, rewarded by his soft groan when she located a particularly sensitive
spot.
“Do you have any idea how beautiful you are?” she murmured, nipping his shoulder.
“Men aren’t beautiful,” he rasped.
“You are. You’re perfect.” On an impulse, she lowered her head and ran her
tongue over his tiny brown nipple. With a sound that was half laugh, half groan, he urged
her head back up to his and kissed her hard on the mouth, his restraint seeming to crumble.
His hands slipped beneath the waistband of her panties, cupping her bare buttocks and pressing
her tightly against him. That he was fully aroused had been evident, but never more so than
now, as he ground his hips forward, groaning against her lips. He dragged his mouth from hers
and buried his face in her neck, still rubbing himself against her. She clung to him, the
friction generating a delicious tingling sensation that compelled her to rock her hips in
a rhythm that matched his.
Then suddenly he released her and rolled onto his back, his breathing labored, his face
flushed. “I need a minute,” he gasped. “I knew this wouldn’t be easy,
but …”
”It’s not your heart, is it?” Despite his earlier assurances, she was still
worried.
William laughed, a tight, choked sound, and reached out to draw her into his arms. “My
problem is well south of there.”
“Oh.” She felt like an idiot for missing the obvious implication, blinded by
concern for him.
“I’m trying not to rush things, to take it slowly. But I’ve wanted you for
so long, and you’re so …” He stopped, taking a shaky breath, his hands sliding
over her body. “Cara, you’re driving me mad.”
She might have predicted that it would frighten her to hear that he was approaching the
limits of his control but, perhaps because she trusted him so completely, instead she found
it deeply exciting. It made her feel womanly and desirable to know that she could reduce him
to a state of almost incoherent need. But above all it made her feel powerful, and power is
often an aphrodisiac. She felt her confidence surge, and with it came a bold and irresistible
impulse.
Her eyes widened with avid curiosity as they locked on the sizable bulge distorting the
silk of his pajama bottoms. Riding the wave of her newfound confidence, she stroked her way
down his torso. When she reached his waistband, she hesitated. But she forced herself to shed
her inhibitions and continued her downward progress.
He gasped and grabbed her hand. “Lizzy, wait.”
“You don’t want me to touch you?” His grip on her hand was half-hearted
at best and she easily shook it off, exploring him gently through the barrier of his pajamas.
He took a shaky breath, his eyes burning into hers, but didn’t answer. Given his tacit
permission, she slipped her hand tentatively inside his pajamas and brushed his swollen flesh
lightly with her fingertips. His hips jerked forward and he closed his eyes, making a small,
almost anguished sound that melted any remaining hesitation she felt.
“Why don’t we take these off.” She slid her hands under the waistband, and
he raised his hips to assist her. She pulled the pajamas downward, drawing in a rapt breath
as he was fully revealed to her heated gaze.
He was magnificent. There was simply no other word to describe him. She drew the garment
down his legs and discarded it quickly, dry-mouthed at the stirring sight of him lying naked
on the bed, strong and virile and marvelously male.
She stretched out on her side, leaning over him. Her hand skimmed from his waist along
his abdomen and then closed around his thick, rigid shaft, exploring it with gentle fingers.
She loved how he felt—warm and smooth and so powerful—but she loved
his passionate response even more as he gasped and lifted his hips off the bed. “Is this
okay?” she asked. “I mean, am I—”
“Okay?” He made a sound between a laugh and a groan. “I should make you
stop, but I’ve waited so long to feel your hands on me, and—” He sucked
in a breath through clenched teeth.
“I don’t want to stop,” she whispered. She had never imagined that giving
a man pleasure could stir so much desire in her, but there was no denying the liquid heat
that throbbed through her as her caresses grew bolder, his gasps and moans and the erratic
movements of his hips guiding her hands. Her lips wandered over his chest, planting gentle
kisses on his warm skin. One of his hands tangled convulsively in her hair while the other
massaged her breast, sending shivery currents of delight to the center of her being.
William’s breathing soon became ragged, and when she lifted her head she saw that
his face was contorted, his eyes squeezed tightly shut. Suddenly he held his breath, his body
tensed, and with a long, low groan, he erupted. She continued to stroke him, gentling her
touch as the convulsive motion of his hips subsided, until at last the tension drained from
his body and he lay on the bed, his head lolling against the pillow, his breathing gradually
slowing.
Elizabeth snuggled close to his side and brushed her lips across his cheek, her arm draped
loosely around him. She tried to relax, but her body tingled with unsated desire. What
if he falls asleep now? She had heard far too many stories about men who went to sleep
immediately after sex, and for a moment she regretted her boldness in pleasuring him despite
his initial—albeit weak—protest. But then his eyes opened and with
a contented, rumbling groan, he wrapped her in his arms.
“I love you,” he murmured hoarsely. “And I’m sorry.”
“Sorry for what?”
“Tonight was supposed to be about us, together, not you taking care of my needs. It
was incredibly selfish of me not to stop you before it went that far.”
“I don’t believe you’ve heard any complaints from me.”
“That’s because you’re the most understanding woman in the world.”
“Let’s not get carried away,” she retorted with a pert grin. “We both
know that’s not true.”
He smiled, toying idly with her hair. “All right. In this instance, you’re being
very understanding.”
“Actually, it was good for me to do that. The counselor—I promise, I’m
not going to keep mentioning her, but she said that the more I felt like I was in control
of what was happening, the easier it would be. And she was right. I liked it, and I really
did feel like I was in charge.”
“You certainly were. I’d say I was putty in your hands, except putty isn’t
anywhere near that hard.”
She giggled. “That’s for sure.”
“I should at least apologize for making somewhat of a mess.” He kissed her. “I’ll
be right back.”
William sat up, swinging his legs off the bed, and crossed to the bathroom, affording her
a heart-stopping look at the rear view she hadn’t yet seen. From behind he was every
bit as perfect as at every other angle, and she watched him stride across the room with warm
appreciation. For modesty’s sake she tried not to blatantly ogle him when he returned
a minute or two later.
He handed her a warm, wet washcloth as he clambered back into bed. With a shy smile, she
dabbed at her hands and deposited the cloth on the nightstand. Then William drew her against
his body. “I believe it’s your turn,” he murmured, nibbling her earlobe, his
hand capturing her breast. “Lie back and relax, love.”
She felt a twinge of awkwardness but she did as he suggested, and he leaned over her, his
kisses warm and deep. He teased her with slow, gentle caresses, his hands worshipping her
body with a tenderness that melted her heart. Her breasts received special attention as he
explored every contour first with his hands, and then with his mouth. She floated on a soft
cloud of pleasure as William’s lips pulled delicately at her nipple, his skillful caresses
introducing her to a new world of sensual delight.
Elizabeth opened her eyes halfway and found him observing her intently. As he held her
gaze, his hand stroked its way down across her abdomen. His long, slender fingers grazed her
thighs, which fell apart as he moved ever closer to the quivering center of her desire. “Your
skin is so soft, cara, like silk.”
A whimper escaped her as he brushed two fingers over the strip of amethyst satin between
her legs. Even through the fabric, his touch was electrifying. He repeated the gentle caress
in a slow rhythm, bending his head to nuzzle her breast, and Elizabeth bit her lip as pleasure
arced through her body. Just when she thought she couldn’t wait any longer, he slipped
his fingers under the thin fabric, stroking her tender flesh. She whimpered again, louder
this time, closing her eyes against the sharp, almost painfully delicious sensations.
Elizabeth moaned in protest when soon afterwards he removed his hand, but it was only to
draw her panties down her legs, discarding them before he resumed his caresses. “My beautiful
Lizzy,” he whispered, capturing her lips with his. She kissed him greedily, gripping
his shoulders as she spiraled upward, ever upward.
His mouth returned to her breasts, feeding at them hungrily as he continued to stroke her,
his fingers spreading fire in their wake. She began to circle her hips against his hand as
a towering wave of rapture amassed inside her. She strained forward, desperately seeking release,
and at last with a soft cry she tumbled over the crest of the wave into ecstatic oblivion.
William gathered her into his arms, stroking her back and whispering endearments as she
drifted slowly back to earth. She buried her heated face against his neck, still trembling
from little pulsing aftershocks. As she gradually emerged from her sensual fog, she pressed
a series of light kisses to his neck and jaw and then rested her head on his chest with a
contented sigh.
“Are you okay?” He brushed her hair away from her face.
“‘Okay’ isn’t really the right word. I was thinking more along the
lines of ‘wow.’”
His chuckle resonated in his chest. “I’m glad.”
Elizabeth lifted her head, giving him a shy smile. “You know, nobody’s ever done …
that … to me before.”
“But certainly you and …” William paused, frowning, and then continued.
“You said things had been escalating between the two of you before that night. I assumed
that at some point …”
“No.”
William’s expression became grim. “I guess I shouldn’t be surprised. That
selfish bastard has probably never thought of anyone but himself in his entire life.”
Michael had been aggressive in seeking his own physical gratification during their late-night
drives, but had shown no interest in Elizabeth’s needs. Yet another reason why I was
stupid to think he loved me. What a difference from William, who wants our enjoyment to be
shared. She pressed her lips to his chest, and he wrapped her in a tight embrace.
His thoughts must have been in a similar vein, because after a moment of silence he said,
“I’ve never seen anything as sexy as you were just now, cara, lying naked
in my bed, trembling and crying out from my touch. You can’t imagine how much that excited
me.”
Actually, she could, because she’d been aroused by his reactions to her caresses.
In addition, ample evidence of his excitement was pressing against her thigh, hard and hot
and insistent. Her hand traveled slowly down his body, her fingers caressing him lovingly,
and he shuddered. “Lizzy, I want you,” he groaned.
His mouth opened over hers with urgent, almost desperate hunger. The kiss was followed
by another, and another, and despite the sensual peak she had so recently scaled desire sprang
back to life inside her. He rolled her on top of him, his hands massaging her buttocks, imparting
little sparks of pleasure as he held her tightly against him, pressing his hips upward with
a ragged groan. Her own hands sought his chest, and she felt his heart hammering out a fierce
rhythm.
“Lizzy?” he murmured in a low, passion-roughened voice that made her tremble.
She knew what he wanted, and she wanted it too, despite the tingle of fear that rippled through
her. It was time to demolish the final barrier between them, to be truly united at last.
“Yes,” she whispered.
“You’re sure?”
“I’m sure.”
“My darling Lizzy. I’ve wanted you … it seems like forever.”
“I know.” She lowered her head to his for a long kiss of molten heat.
William rolled them onto their sides and released her, turning away to open a drawer in
the night table. She snuggled against him, nuzzling his neck while he rolled on a condom.
That task complete, he kissed her softly and spoke in gentle tones. “You said earlier
that it would help you to be in charge. If you want, I can lie on my back and you can—”
“No.” She felt herself blushing. The counselor had made this same suggestion,
and Elizabeth had spent much of last night captivated by this stirring vision. But now the
thought filled her with panic. “No, that’s okay.”
“Are you sure? Because I wouldn’t mind, not in the least.” He quirked an
eyebrow, a lascivious glint in his eyes.
She shook her head. “Another time, but not tonight.” There was too much risk
of spoiling this first, momentous joining through her inexperience.
Elizabeth expected William to question her again, but clearly his priorities were elsewhere.
His eyes were nearly black with desire, but they held tenderness as well, tenderness so profound
that it helped to calm her nerves. He shifted her onto her back and hovered over her, one
hand skimming her body while their mouths melded with passionate intensity. Elizabeth ran
her hands along his torso, reveling in his warmth and strength and the way his muscles leapt
reflexively at her touch.
He coaxed her thighs apart with gentle strokes and then moved to kneel between her legs.
Her eyes drifted shut as he began to rub himself against the tender flesh he had caressed
to the point of shuddering surrender just a short time ago. It felt wonderful, and she circled
her hips slowly, luxuriating in the delicious sensation.
“Lizzy.” His voice was hoarse.
She opened her eyes, and he held her gaze. “I love you,” he whispered. Then he
grasped her hips, pushing himself slowly inside her, a deep groan escaping his throat.
He felt so large, so potent, and she bit her lip, her body tensing in expectation of the
searing pain she remembered all too well from before. No. This is William. He would never
hurt me. But when he pressed forward again, more firmly this time, she felt a sharp stab
of pain that only grew stronger as he began to move slowly within her.
Elizabeth considered asking him to slow down or even to hold still, but just then he exhaled
a shaky breath. “So good,” he muttered thickly. He leaned forward, his arms supporting
his weight, his passionate gaze locking with hers. “Are you okay?”
“I’m fine,” she lied, mesmerized by the expression of fierce ecstasy on
his face. He had waited so long for this moment, and she resolved to persevere, pain or no
pain.
William murmured her name and began to drop heated kisses along her neck. Grateful for
the distraction from her discomfort, she sought additional diversions, running her hands up
his arms to his shoulders. He had wonderful shoulders—broad and powerful, but
without the heavier muscles she associated with her unpleasant past. She laced her arms around
his neck, stroking the nape, and with a groan he buried himself deeper inside her, his hungry
mouth devouring hers. Gradually the worst of the tension left her body, and as she relaxed
the pain dissipated, leaving behind a sensation of fullness and friction that was not at all
unpleasant.
They continued to kiss, alternating between teasing nibbles and deep, thorough exploration
of one another’s mouths, and Elizabeth moaned as a sweet ache of pleasure began to shimmer
between her legs. William adopted a slow, intoxicating rhythm, his breathing becoming labored,
his groans more frequent as she involuntarily rocked her hips in time with his gentle thrusts.
She sensed from the tension in his body that he was struggling to restrain himself for her
sake, and she wondered if it was possible for her heart to explode with love. Threading her
fingers through his hair, she lifted her head to nibble his neck, locating a spot behind his
ear that was particularly sensitive. He groaned again and began to thrust harder, the sharp
rasp of his breathing taking on a desperate urgency.
“I love you, William,” she whispered in his ear, tears springing to her eyes
as she said the heartfelt words. “I love you so much.”
“Oh, God. Lizzy, I—” He threw back his head, his eyes squeezed shut,
and then with a fierce groan he pressed deep inside of her, his entire body tensing. His hips
moved spasmodically, his panting breaths filling the silence until his arms could no longer
support him. Then he collapsed on top of her, his head buried against her neck, his chest
still heaving.
Elizabeth cradled him
in her arms, massaging his sweat-dampened back with one hand while the other tenderly stroked
his hair. My first lover. She tightened her arms around him, relishing the warmth and
strength of his body as it covered hers.
Wait a minute. He’s on top of me, and … I’m okay.
William apparently recognized his position at almost the same moment and
withdrew from her quickly, rolling
to one side. “Lizzy, I’m sorry—I was so … I couldn’t think,
and I just wanted … Are you okay?”
“I’m fine.” She reached for him. “So why don’t you come back here
and let me hold you?”
“Absolutely. But give me a second—I’ll be right back.”
He disappeared into the bathroom, returning almost immediately. This time she didn’t
bother to conceal her interest in watching him cross the room, but he didn’t seem to
notice, a thoughtful frown creasing his forehead. He slid back into bed and lay on his side,
pulling her against him.
“You’re sure you’re okay?”
“I’m fine.”
“Good. Because … Cara, I …” He shook his head with a rueful smile.
“I don’t have the words to tell you how I feel. I’d need to get up and play
something for you, but I don’t have the energy right now.”
Elizabeth reached for the lamp on the night table, switching it off. In the darkness, she
slid back into his arms. “You can play for me later. Right now, just hold me.”
They floated together in a sea of contentment, exchanging soft kisses, tender caresses,
and whispered words of love. Elizabeth had never experienced true intimacy before, and she
sensed that nothing in their relationship—perhaps nothing in her life—would ever be the same.
“I’m sorry,” William murmured.
“I told you, no harm done. For some reason it didn’t scare me this time.”
“I meant, I’m sorry
I couldn’t hold on long enough for you.
I tried.”
She kissed him. “It wasn’t your fault. I was pretty nervous. Besides, it had
only been a few minutes since … before. But I enjoyed it very much.” The sweet pleasure
she had experienced had left her eager to try again, and soon.
His tone was still repentant. “I tried to slow down, but I’ve wanted you for
so long,
and you felt so good,
and then when you said you loved me …” He sighed. “It overwhelmed
me, and suddenly I was past the point of no return.”
“Please don’t worry about it. I’ve been very well taken care of tonight
by my wonderful guy.”
His lips slid along her throat. “Some day you’re going to sing that for me.”
“No, I’m not, but I could pop in the DVD right now if you want to hear the song.”
His sleepy chuckle rumbled in her ear. “I’ll pass.”
They lapsed into silence, and Elizabeth’s eyes drifted shut.
“Since you didn’t get scared when I was lying on top of you—does
this mean you’re done with the flashbacks for good?”
“I doubt it. They come and go. But I think they’ll be less frequent now, and
eventually they’ll go away. And, you know, tonight there was something special in my
favor.”
“What?”
She pressed a warm kiss to his lips. “I have everything I need right here, because
you’re with me. If a certain creep from my college days had tried to crash the party,
we’d have kicked him to the curb together.”
“I love you, Lizzy,” he mumbled thickly. No more than a minute later he was breathing
in the gentle rhythm of sleep.
“I love you too,” she whispered, closing her eyes.

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Last updated
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